OHH WHAT A GOOD DAY.

i'm in a good mood :]]]]  and i'm pretty content with things.

today was just a typical day. nothing particularly special happened. though we did absolutely nothing in french because her other class had an assembly and she wanted to keep them equal. [i dislike that teacher very much though]. i also didn't have clothing class.

they finally stopped playing mmmbop[hanson]. our school is pretty retarded. they decided to play mmmbop on repeat in the hallways to annoy us and try to get us to donate money for renaissance. the teacher i hate decided to play in it the classroom on repeat til we donated money to turn it off-or for the kids who liked it keep it on. each had to pay more than the last. we raised $750(?) dollars and someone [wanted to stay anonymous] wrote a check for $750(?) to get us to the goal $1500 and to get it to stop playing. probably a teacher. most kids thought it was retarded to pay for our school to annoy us.

i had like 2 easy things for homework- amazinggg.

tomorrow i'm getting my make up done with morgan. and maybe seeing the hitcher? who knows. saturday i'm hanging with hannah and doing some shopping i believe.

i'm super excited. i love planning... i think i'm going to put random streaks in my hair and grow it out. then i'm going to work out a ton so i'm in shape for summer. and over summer mo and i are going to try to get our belly buttons pierced. plus for her birthday i think we might be getting our cartilage pierced again.
<--possibility.

oh i can't wait for summer because weekends are a joke. eek sleeping and hanging out with friends. whats better? oh yeah i'll be able to legally drive by myself. (technically will be able to before summer but thats just a plus)

peace&love.

its been foreverrrr since i've written in this.

nothing new and exciting really... except
hung out with my old friend julie who i haven't seen in years, got my wisdom teeth out, had a decent xmas break, umm i'd say thats about it.

last night i went to barrett's show at the creepy crawl. good job boys :]

basically.. guys suck entirely. as usual.
i'm stuck in a rut. is it better to stay away and shut up or try for another failed attempt?

i'd give anything to know whats going on in their heads.
and i thought i had it figured out.

its getting to the point where its becoming too much. overbearing. it makes me weak when i'm alone. sick of thinking about it. sick of replaying conversations over and over. yet i can see it from both sides- my reasonable emotions and my pathetic drama.

i need someone to make me forget.

are some things impossible to forget though? can you decide whats embedded in you?

new years resolutions?
-get in shape (i know i know, typical)
-grow hair out.
-decide on what i'm doing with my hair.
-find a decent boyfriend.
-get a new hobby.
hmm.....

oh wow ha haven't written in forever.
quite a lot has happened since then i guess.

my grandpa passed away, i've hung out with some old friends, schools gotten harder, we went on thanksgiving break, things have become more difficult with some people i guess.
ha from all the talk with friends i've come to the conclusion that 99% of guys aren't worth it. and girls will always think that but we'll never be able to break away. [well most of us wont]

we'll always hang on every word. smile at the least bit of attention. remember every glance. and worry about every outcome. [and agonizingly miss them]

i'm so sick of being single. katlyn, me, and hannah have a goal to have a boyfriend by the end of the [school]year. now that's not to say we're going to go out with anyone; of course we have to like them and that sort..

i remember finding this a while ago but i still think its cute. i think i've posted it before. "I'm so frustrated with him right now. He knows..he knows how much I like him, he knows I'd do anything just to keep him around. But I'm beginning to stand up for myself & learning just cause I want something, doesn't always mean I need it. I might get hurt in the process of drifting from him, but I'm saving myself from the hurt I will be feeling when he leaves me again for her. I'm becoming the person I always thought I could be."  if only it was that easy right?

HAPPY HALLOWEEN.

soo. not much new as usual.
every entry lately is the exact same.
all boring and basic.
sorry.

<for the record> friday i hung out with a bunch of people and went to halloween stores and such. then we to clares to decorate for the party. saturday i worked boonanza and then went to the halloween party [i was a dead person (emily corpse bride-esk) and i temporarily dyed my hair purple-blue-black (washes out in 8 washes)]. sunday i worked on my french project (a skirt). monday was actually a rather good monday, can't complain. and today was halloween. really boring actually. didn't even feel like halloween since i didn't do anything and we don't really have trick-or-treaters in my neighborhood anymore. i watched some disney channel movie and ate candy. now i feel like i should go to the gym for a while. blehhhh. too much candy=stomach ache... and that was like 3 hours ago. damn you slow metabolism.

i think i'm going to hush with dan.

i'm bored with my hair again.

i'm pretty bored with everything actually.

YEAHH. that's life.

stress stress stress makes a tired tired tired me.

ha i don't even think any of this makes sense.
i'm half asleep. the heaters on :] byyyyyye.
peace&love.

busy week
i've had a test in about every class this week which kinda sucks
not to mention i've had quite a bit of homework
plus i have a french project i've yet to start due soon
what funn

this weekend should be just as busy.
plans friday, working "boonanza" saturday, party saturday, french project to do, and other homework.
what should i dress up as for the halloween party?
ideasssssss?

there was definitely a mouse in my civics class today
everyone freaked
talk about disgusting

my sleeping schedule is completely screwed up

i don't even know what to write. or think.
i'm bored.
i'll write tomorrow.

i'm tired of being alone. so hurry up and get here.

peace&love.